Sunday, August 28, 2011

Praise God for a quiet month!!

I know I haven't posted anything in a while about how Analeigh is doing so I figured I'd take a moment to do just that. Since my last post, things have been going fairly well. She had an appointment with her pulmonologist on the 15th and as a result of some thick secretions that had a foul odor, she was put back on the Tobramycin nebulizer treatments for 2 weeks.


I hate when she has to have that stuff because it gets her heart rate up and she seems to be more agitated. It doesn't help that this past Monday, my M-Th day nurse realized that someone had been giving her twice the prescribed dose for a 2 day period (which was a total of 6 doses). Instead of getting the 80mg 3x per day, she was given 160mg 3x per day... much too high of a dose! It was an honest mistake, I'm sure, because the pharmacy misprinted the label saying the vials were 40mg vials and she was to be given 2 of them every 8 hours. In reality, they were 80mg vials (2ml per vial) and she only needed 1 vial of the Tobramycin mixed with 1 vial of Xopenex every 8 hours. Anyway, to make a long story short.. it was making her face all red and splotchy and her breathing was crazy. We decided to back off of it for a couple of days because an overdose of Tobramycin can make the lungs feel as if they are burning (which is probably why she was so fussy and red). That seemed to do the trick and she's back to her normal self.


She saw the ENT on the 19th... he confirmed the new Bivona trach is the appropriate size and everything looked good around the trach site. She was supposed to see her pediatrician tomorrow (for those 15 month shots she never got), but because she's still on the Tobramycin, they moved it to Sept 12.


Physical therapy seems to be helping with the stiffness she developed in her legs during her hospital stays back in July. She's tolerating them being bound together more often (which keeps her from getting too contracted in that butterfly position). She seems to really enjoy being in the prone position (on her stomach) and it amazes me every time I see her that way because she's getting so long now! She looks so small to me still sometimes until they stretch her out and then all I can say is "WOW!"


That's pretty much all that's gone on this last month... things are pretty calm (which we are grateful for). Thanks to all for your continued prayers and support. She still needs a miracle! :)


On another note, I'm getting so close to Jayden's arrival now... 8 more days!! My scheduled C-Section is on September 6th @ 39w2d. I'm so beyond ready! At the same time though, I have to admit that I'm starting to feel more and more nervous. The closer we get, the more real it is to me that I will soon have a newborn in the house who actually cries when he's hungry, sleepy or feels bad. I didn't get much of that with Analeigh. Her first 6 months were spent in the NICU and I never had to wake up for scheduled feedings in the middle of the night. When she first came home, I hardly went to bed before 2am, so I did get to experience a little bit of that but not on the scale that I'm about to with Jayden. It's kind of like becoming a mommy for the very first time.


Sometimes it's hard for me to remember Analeigh when she was really small... she always had wires everywhere and tape all over her face. Knowing that we won't have to go through that again makes me so relieved but at the same time, I realize that his care is going to be so much different from hers. I had a lot of help with her but with Jayden, it will all be up to me. Every feeding, poopy diaper, bath, etc. will be all mine. I know I'm in for a crazy ride! lol


Well folks, that's really all I have to share right now... just wanted to let everyone in on Analeigh's last month (that has thankfully been spent OUTSIDE of the hospital) and to remind you all to keep praying! :)

Friday, August 12, 2011

On this day in 2010...

So, I saw this thing on Facebook today that said "On this day in 2010". It showed the status I posted that day... August 12, 2010 @ 9:04pm. Dr. Bedi in the NICU at Clear Lake had sat me down earlier that day and told me that Analeigh was going to need a tracheostomy. The alternative? Possibly death from respiratory failure. He answered all my questions, the nurses handed me some literature and I somehow managed to hold it together... until I got to my car. Then, I lost it. 
I left that hospital feeling completely discouraged... and cheated. We weren't going to get those belly laughs or baby babbles that I had so been longing to hear. In fact, up to that point, we'd never even seen her smile. She was so hungry for air and fighting so hard that she just couldn't. I knew it was the right thing to do for her, but that still didn't make it feel any less like the end of the world. I cried the whole way home and more still while I was choking out the words to my Michael and my parents. 
It was the biggest thing in our lives at that time. I worried about having to learn how to change the trach, clean it, suction it, etc. I was so overwhelmed. Looking back now, well... that was the easy part. I didn't think then that it could be any worse... and then it was. I'm grateful that we did at least get a few months of her smiles... and the baby babbles we were told we wouldn't get, well... we got those too. No laughs but those smiles made it not matter.
Oh how I wish we could go back! I wouldn't care if we had that version of Analeigh for the rest of her life because now I know.. it does get worse! I thought then that it was a matter of counting down a year, maybe two and then she'd be just like a normal child with stronger lungs. I never imagined a parent's worst nightmare could ever become reality for us. Well, now I know. I wish all the time that I hadn't taken those few precious months for granted like I know I did.
 Below is my status update for that day and the comments everyone left me. The tracheostomy was actually done on the 18th.. 6 days after this post.
"Spoke to the dr today. Analeigh was seen by 3 specialists and they all agree that the only way she will get any better is to have a trachiostomy. A trach will be inserted in her throat to allow her to breathe. It will go through her vocal chords so she will not be able to talk. She'll have it probably until she's 5 yrs old."

  • Lisa Quick likes this.
    • Loyce Schofield Shipman omg, if u need ne thing... and i mean it, u just let me kno. my father n law had 1 and he cud talk, just she or u will have to cover the hole up. Its hard and i kno it. I feel deeply 4 u!
      August 12, 2010 at 9:08pm ·
    • Thea M. Joy
      Obviosly, this is hard news for us because it will mean having to learn how to change the trach tube, clean the area and suction her. Swimming will be out of the question and we'll have to learn sign language most likely. No first words or ...See More
      August 12, 2010 at 9:09pm ·
    • Thea M. Joy Thanks Loyce... Yeah covering it when she gets older is an option but they did suggest sign language.
      August 12, 2010 at 9:12pm ·
    • Jessica Mcdonald my prayers are with you and by gods will she will be healed all things are possible through Jesus Christ.... if you need anything give me a call
      August 12, 2010 at 9:16pm ·
    • Tracey McAteer Teel Oh Thea, I am sooo sorry to hear this news. I know you two are struggling with this, and I know words don't mean much right now, but I will add you to the prayer list at church. I can not imagine how hard this was for you to hear. (((((Thea/Michael)))))
      August 12, 2010 at 9:16pm ·
    • Thea M. Joy Thanks guys. It is very hard and still sinking in.
      August 12, 2010 at 9:19pm ·
    • Jaki Frizzell Oh wow. When its removed will she be able to speak then?
      August 12, 2010 at 9:21pm ·
    • Erin Evans Akey Thea I am so sorry......you guys just keep praying and hang in there!
      August 12, 2010 at 9:31pm ·
    • Dezaraye Wertman Thea ... I wish I could do something. I will pray and I've sent out prayer requests on your behalf. I love you and I'm here for you if you need to talk. You know my number.
      August 12, 2010 at 9:38pm ·
    • Stacy Breland I'm sorry for your news, I will keep praying...it's never too late for God's miracles to keep flowing for this little angel of yours...she alone is God's own little miracle..I could not even imagine the hurt u are going through... May God pour his blessings out for u!!..we all love u, and if u need anyone to talk to..I'm here for u
      August 12, 2010 at 9:55pm ·
    • Thea M. Joy Thanks everyone. Jacki, she'll be able to talk once its out.
      August 12, 2010 at 10:14pm ·
    • Jaki Frizzell Then maybe its a blessing in disguise, she'll know sign language and you won't loose her first laugh or word, you'll just have to wait a little longer. The sign language gives her astep ahead of others. I know your tired of waiting and bad news, but you have her.. And there's a good chance this will work so you can bring he home. Stay strong and keep praying.
      August 12, 2010 at 10:18pm ·
    • Thea M. Joy Thanks... I'm hanging in there even if only by a thread.
      August 12, 2010 at 10:29pm ·
    • Jaki Frizzell Hey a thread counts, tie a not in it and swing from it if you get a little bored! All jokes aside your in my prayers as well.
      August 12, 2010 at 10:31pm ·
    • Thea M. Joy Lol, thanks.
      August 12, 2010 at 10:34pm ·
    • Lacy Kay Zachary all I can say is (((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))​))))))))
      August 12, 2010 at 10:38pm ·
    • Thea M. Joy Thanks girl.
      August 12, 2010 at 10:52pm ·
    • Nancy Joy I love you Thea, I love you Michael !!!
      August 12, 2010 at 11:30pm ·
    • Thea M. Joy We love you too.
      August 13, 2010 at 8:55am ·
    • Pam Gigout Buras Thea, I'm so sorry to hear this news and I'll be praying for you guys. Remember, when we are weak God is our strength!
      August 13, 2010 at 9:11am ·
    • Thea M. Joy Thank you.
      August 13, 2010 at 12:10pm ·

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Analeigh's Physical Therapy

With every day that goes by, I become more and more concerned with the progress of Analeigh's physical therapy. Most days, if you so much as touch her right leg, she comes unglued. If you look at her feet, they are turned outward and I have to say, it looks very painful to me. Her physical therapist has made mention of her need for metal braces (vs. soft ones) that worries me. When I apply gentle pressure to her right foot and try to massage it and work it back inward, it's very clear to me that it causes Analeigh great discomfort. I'm thinking that metal braces would turn that minimal discomfort into constant pain. The alternative? She won't ever walk. Even with the braces, it's not clear to me how much progress we can make in that area.

Since she's spent so much time in the hospital without adequate therapy and positioning, her hips have also become more contracted. Her legs have been allowed to lay wide open for too long and so when we rotate her legs inward, she grimaces visibly. In order to help correct this problem and give her physical therapy even when the therapist isn't present, a few vital tools are needed. One is a seating device of some kind that will make it more impossible for her to have bad posture while sitting up. Our therapist recommended a Tumbleform chair for this very reason. It, unlike her bouncy seat, will force her to sit up better and with her legs extended in front of her instead of "spread eagle". I think if she is regularly placed in this chair, it will minimize the contracting of her hips, legs and knees. 





Unfortunately, our insurance will not cover but one seating device and we've already chosen a Kid cart (that will help with transport to and from doctors' appointments and is designed to accomodate her equipment). These special chairs cost over $300 and we cannot afford one. I've set up a Donate button on this blog and also a link to donate on my facebook page. 

If we can't raise the money to purchase this chair (and other equipment such as a custom car seat), I'll have to find various charity organizations to apply to for help. The process can take as long as 6-8 weeks just to have your application reviewed. In the meantime, Analeigh's physical condition is a constant worry. If you can help, please do... in whatever way that is. Whether it be prayer, a financial contribution or sharing the links with friends so they can donate. 

My current goal is set at $1000 but any funds received above that amount will be used for other things Analeigh needs (ranging from diapers and wipes to additional medical supplies, a wheel chair ramp and eventually the purchase of an actual wheel chair if necessary). Thank you for your continued love, support and prayers throughout this long journey!

Sunday, August 7, 2011

A Day of Firsts

So, today Analeigh experienced her first public outing ever (besides going to the hospital or doctor's office)... we took her to church!! She slept through the ride there and even through praise & worship. This amazed me because it's not uncommon for her to wake up and give the nurses and I dirty looks when we're talking too loud and interrupting her sleep. I didn't even have to use the ear plugs my Dad got for her. 

I was even more proud of her for how well she did with so many strangers touching her as they prayed. Her heart rate never got very high and she didn't look completely freaked out (like she usually does when she senses the presence of someone she doesn't know). She did get a little hot before it was all over and needed a breathing treatment as soon as we got her home but otherwise it was a great success!

She looked absolutely beautiful and I only wish I had managed to get more pictures to document her first REAL outing (that involved no ambulances). I did manage to sneak a couple while she was passed out peacefully in her car seat though. 

Anyway, this is going to be a short post. I just wanted to make sure I made mention of how great she did and how grateful I am that everything went smoothly. I daresay she actually enjoyed this trip (probably because it didn't involve any painful poking or prodding) and I hope we can do it again soon (though it might be a good idea to wait until it's a little cooler outside). Big thanks again to all who shared the experience with us and to everyone who offered prayers on her behalf! :)

Friday, August 5, 2011

It's been a while.. Rambles about Analeigh & Baby Jayden's Approaching Arrival

I know I have majorly slacked on updating this blog... I guess I just assume that everyone reads my Facebook updates/notes and probably won't even read what I write here. Sometimes though, I need a little more space to talk about the things that have been going on.

Last month, Analeigh spent 19 out of 31 days in the hospital. She went in Jul 2 - Jul 12 with aspiration pneumonia (from vomiting formula), then from Jul 18 - Jul 24 with aspiration pneumonia again (from aspirating her oral secretions), and finally from Jul 29 - Jul 31 with what was later discovered to be strep pneumonia. It seems like every time we turn around, something new and horrible is presenting itself. She has gone from having a G-button to a GJ (due to a severe case of reflux), and from an uncuffed trach to a cuffed one (that isnt currently inflated). All of this in an effort to prevent the aspiration pneumonia from happening again BUT she's vomited formula since then.

I'm now in full battle mode trying to get her in to see a pediatric gastroenterologist to find out if there are any other alternatives. She shouldn't be able to vomit with the combination of her GJ button, cuffed trach and nissen fundoplication (which tightens the esophagus to prevent fluids from coming back up into the airway). The doctors are blaming most of these new problems on her anoxic brain injury which is why I am so angry that they keep refusing to do another MRI. The PICU doctor told me that they usually like to wait 6-7 months out from the initial injury before repeating the MRI. Here's my problem... it's been 6 1/2 months already! Aren't we close enough??

I just think that if they are going to say that these changes in her condition are neurological in origin, shouldn't we get another picture of her brain to find out if the damage appears to be worse than it was six months ago? It looked pretty bad then! They refused also to do another EEG, saying that it would only be useful in documenting seizure activity (which thankfully she hasn't had so far) and wouldn't tell us anything else about her brain activity. I know she hasn't made any of the progress so far that they were hoping for but it's not like I'm expecting the MRI to show me a miracle. I would have seen the miracle if it had happened by now... I just want to know, IS IT WORSE??

Sometimes I feel like these doctors are just toying with us. One second they want us to have "hope" and the next, anything but. Naturally, the brain injury worries me but I am even more concerned with the beating her lungs have taken this last month. The chronic lung disease already takes a lot out of her and then adding back to back cases of pneumonia, it's a wonder her respiratory status hasn't taken an even more drastic turn for the worse. She's a fighter, I know... I just want to figure out any possible way we can to keep her lungs protected from any further damage.

On another note, things with Jayden (the bun in the oven) have been coming along nicely. The last weight I got on him was at 33w3d and he was already 5lbs, 6oz (he was the size of a 35 weeker). Now that I am actually almost 35 weeks, it wouldn't shock me if he measured to be the size of a 36.5-37 weeker. Maybe, just maybe this means he can come out just a little early. I've gotten so big and miserable that I can't help but hope that the end is near... VERY near!!


His room is all put together along with his swing, pack n play and stroller. All of his clothes have been washed and put away in his dresser, just waiting for him to wear. I need a couple more things that aren't deal breakers, but for the most part... we're ready!

I am so looking forward to this being a different experience. Analeigh was so early and caused us so much worry and stress that it was hardly an enjoyable event. I didn't even get to hear her cry or hold her because she had to be intubated immedately and placed in the isolette. I want to hear Jayden's first cry and hold him while they're finishing up. I want to be able to attempt breast feeding and having that early mother-son bonding time. I think it would do my heart some good because I feel like I was cheated out of so much where Analeigh is concerned.

It still seems a little unreal at times that there will soon be a REAL newborn in the house. One that doesn't spend six months in the NICU and that gets to be dressed up in the cute "coming home" outfit and placed in a car to go home (instead of an ambulance). It's a little like experiencing motherhood for the first time because everything went so completely different with Analeigh. She was six days old before I could touch her, a month and half old before I could hold her and almost two months old before she was even allowed to wear clothes. She was over four months old before I ever saw her face without any tape on it. Goodness, I can't wait to see what it's really like!! :)

I'm trying to ignore the feelings of guilt when I find myself getting excited. I think about everything Analeigh couldn't do from birth and can't do now and all the things we didn't get to experience with her (belly laughs, family outings, getting her ears pierced, taking her to church, etc.) and then I daydream about the things we will get to do with Jayden. It just makes me feel bad sometimes because I worry that we'll get so caught up in the freedom of a normal child that we'll forget to take time for Analeigh. I guess it's normal for me to worry about that and I suppose I'll just have to take extra care in making sure she isn't left behind (so to speak).

Well, I think I've taken up enough of your time for today. Thanks to you all who listen and who show your continued love and support. We appreciate each and every one of you! :)